** Based on a dream that I had. We were in a room and it was really dark. Really, really, really, really dark. It was day time but not in that closet. This is how the conversation went.
“You know that if I were to date a co-worker he has to absolutely be at least my height or taller.” “Oh I like short girls but most of the girls shorter than me anyways.” “Yeah but it’s a lot of short boys our age.” “It’s a lot of short girls our age.” “Yeah I see your point.” “Like you, you short but you not too short” “Yeah I see that.” “Your height is perfect” “It is?” “Yeah so I can do this…” And well you can guess what he did can’t ya. So he kissed me right there. I have no idea why in the hell it was so dark but I felt it and I could see him.
Like his face. So we walked out of the room we were in. Really can’t tell what room because I honestly don’t know but it was a room some damn where. So I walked outside. I got in the limo. The only people in the limo were me, Darius, Greg, and Miguel. We were always the only people in the 2 parted limo which Miguel and Greg shared in the front and Darius and I shared in the back. Darius sat next to me. That was not normal, I looked at him with all disgust. I did not mind until he started to touch me. I looked at him.
You still have a girlfriend you inconsiderate idiot. I thought but I didn’t say out loud. I don’t know how I could tell my thoughts but not control my actions but what ever. “You not worrying about your girlfriend are you.”, I asked. “I broke up with her like right before we got on the bus”, he said. “ Yeah ok whatever”, I said. “Why don’t you ever believe what I say.” “Because you don’t give me a reason to believe you.” “What reasons do you need?” “What I need is for you not to lie to me.” He put his hand on my left thigh. I looked at him with even more disgust than I did the first time. He hurt me. With more hurt than I can ever imagine a person going through. “Can you not… touch me… like at all.”, I said as he continued to touch me in places I felt uncomfortable.
Then he kissed me and I pushed him off. “Can you at least wait until the others get off of the bus. I mean if you gonna force me to do this can we be alone.”, I said giving up. “No they all the way up there let me handle this situation.” “You don’t need to handle anything” He kissed me long and soft. I looked at him with my eyes welling up. “Bae don’t. I don’t want to.” “You going to do me like that.” “If you love me like you say you do then you wouldn’t do this.” “I love you and I know you love me just let me bae.” “Allow you to do something that I’m going to regret.” “Please…”, he said pulling on my pants.
“Stop!”, I screamed loud enough for the bus driver to hear. “Heyyyy!! Not all of that noise is necessary unless…” the Bus driver said being interrupted. “Everything is fine.”, Darius said. “What about you young lady are you okay?” “I’m ok.”, I said as Darius squeezed her hand really tight. It was almost as if he was forcing me yet I wasn’t going to say anything even if he didn’t squeeze my hand. I loved him. Yet the way he ended the relationship wasn’t cool. He sort of left me for Sofia after Leo told him that I was going out with him. I wasn’t going out with Leo. Leo was my ex and I had him. If I wanted Leo to myself then I would have Leo to myself. I didn’t need to cheat to be with him just saying. But back to the text. “Darius…”, I said letting him pull down my pants.
“Come on baby let me do this.” The bus stopped and Miguel and Greg got off of the bus. But if Miguel and Greg were off the bus we had about 5 minutes before we reached our stop. Which meant we were running out of time. Which meant I only have to foreplay for a couple of minutes. Darius got on top of me and he pulled himself out onto me and pulled down my pants all the way. Darius pushed himself against me hard but not enough. The bus pulled up to the corner of the school and I said something. “We are almost there bae we just gonna have to wait.” “Oh my f***ing gosh.”, he said. “Yeah better him than me.”, I said fixing myself. “Yeah just know we walking home together today.”He said. “No we ain’t, there go my brother.”, I said getting off. “Ok just kik me later we gon’ talk about this.” “Yeah aite Not today”, I thought.
Not really chapters in a dream just a blank page and a new part so… Here it is a blank page and a new part. I’m home in the house or whatever. I live with my brother in this. Tyler Rickons. That’s my brothers’ real name. I have no reason to hide his identity. I’m having a conversation on kik with Xander. Xander- So what are we now? Moni- We just well us Xander- So we us going out Moni- Not yet Xander- Why not? Moni- I’m not sure I was honestly thinking about Darius. At the time he was the only thing on my mind. I just wish he was to tell me his thoughts without problems. Xander- Please. You know you want to. Moni- Yeah but I have issues Xander- We all have issues Moni- We can do this together. Xander- That’s what I’m saying baby Moni- Yeah Xander- You my girlfriend? Moni- I better be the only one Xander- You’ll never have to worry about that.
Moni- Aite Imma kik you later. Xander- Aite I needed to kik Darius. He was probably equally important. Darius- Hey Moni- Heyy Darius- Oh I’m 2 y worthy Moni- You worthy to get punched Darius- Do you want to love me? Moni- You want my honest answer. Darius- Yea bae Moni- No I don’t not anymore Darius- Why Moni- Cuz’ you don’t deserve it Darius- I don’t deserve to be loved? That doesn’t sound right. Moni- I love you Darius. I love you but you have to learn Darius- You love me but you hate me that hurts baby Moni- Yeah Darius- I understand but… Moni- You don’t get it I try to tell you things but you don’t listen Darius- You try to tell me that you love me and I do it first Moni- Yeah Darius- You try to tell me why I made you mad but I change Moni- Yeah Darius- You think the relationship is fine Moni- And then you hurt me
Part 2……………………
So now we are at the job. The people who will be there are; Moni Stajah {Best Friend} Xander { New Bae} Darius {Old Bae} Sofia {Darius’ “Ex”} Tekinea {BOSS Lady} Leo (Oldest Bae; BOSS Man)
We got on the bus after putting all of our luggage at the bottom of the coach buses. We were going to Fort Lauderdale on a job relocation. My people all worked with me I guess at a law firm but we attorneys have moved to Fort Lauderdale where the group as a whole has to live now. We agreed that Stajah, Sofia, and I will all stay in a 3 bedroom house and the boys, Xander and Darius will share a 2 bedroom house. Sofia wasn’t supposed to came on the trip but Darius is friends with Leo and Leo said yeah alright his girlfriend can come.
That was before they “broke up” so Darius says. So when we arrived to our new homes shortly after I sent the furniture I just ordered there and the movers had already put it in our house. I have like mega money like near rich. So I had a very dark furniture set. It was a beautiful couch with spots of different shades of purple in layers. The house itself was gorgeous. The only thing that disappointed me was the fact that we lived directly next door to the boys.
But I made it clear to Sofia that since the house was in my name and Stajah was on the lease yet she wasn’t that I was making her pay bills and she would get kicked out if she didn’t follow our rules. So Stajah decided that the extra room was our office which meant Sofia was to find another place to sleep. She was to be with Stajah in her room but it turned out that Stajah wasn’t feeling it. She says she doesn’t share rooms and I had a person who was going to be over frequently. My boyfriend and I can’t share a room. So Sofia will be sleeping on the sofa. I didn’t want her too. But it turns out that I was nice enough to let her sleep on my brand new sofa instead of the floor.